B5 Triple Drabble: Confession

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Title: Confession
Fandom: Babylon 5
Author: badly_knitted
Characters: Delenn, G’Kar.
Rating: PG
Spoilers/Setting: Ship of Tears.
Summary: Delenn has a confession to make to G’Kar.
Written For: Challenge 465: Amnesty 77 at fan_flashworks, using Challenge 31: Apology.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Babylon 5, or the characters. They belong to J. Michael Straczynski.
A/N: Triple drabble and a half, 350 words.
 
 


How does one apologise for withholding information, even when knowing that by telling what one knew, nothing would have been served but to make a terrible situation even worse? Yes, Delenn had known the Centauri were in league with the shadows, and yes, G’Kar, as the Narn ambassador, had surely had the right to that information, but…
 

If he had known, and tried to act on that knowledge, the Shadows would have been forewarned. They would have begun to move openly, before any preparations could have been made to oppose them. There would have been wholesale slaughter and the Narn, instead of being decimated, would likely have been wiped out, billions dead instead of merely millions.

 
As things stood, the Narn could rebuild, eventually. They were defeated, for the present, but not destroyed. When the war against the Shadows was over, they might be able to rebuild their civilisation. They would at least have a chance. But still, the pain of knowing such information had been deliberately withheld, condemning his people, must cut G’Kar to the depths of his soul.

 
Delenn could see the anger and the anguish on the Narn ambassador’s face, the impotent rage bubbling below the surface, because as much as it pained him, G’Kar was wise enough to know that what Delenn said was true. Telling him, would not have saved the lives that were lost, would instead only have added to them.
 

Someday, perhaps, G’kar would find it in him to forgive her, but Delenn knew that time was not now. G’kar must be allowed the time and space to process his rage and his grief. There was nothing more Delenn could do for him.
 

I am sorry. Those words would have been wholly inadequate, and so Delenn did not speak them aloud. They would not have helped G’Kar, and they would not have lessened her own guilt in the slightest. But she spoke them within her heart, hoping that someday, in some manner, she might make amends for the harm she had done one race for the greater good of the universe they shared.
 

 
The End