FAKE Ficlet: No Going Back
Aug. 8th, 2025 06:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
badly_knittedTitle: No Going Back
Fandom: FAKE
Author:
badly_knittedCharacters: Ryo, Dee.
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 595
Setting: Vol. 7, Act 19.
Summary: This will irrevocably change everything between them, but Ryo isn’t going to let that change his mind.
Written For:
hekateras’ prompt ‘Any, any, This will change us,’ at ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
threesentenceficathon.Disclaimer: I don’t own FAKE, or the characters. They belong to the wonderful Sanami Matoh.
This will change us, Ryo thinks as Dee’s lips find his, soft and questioning, because even though this isn’t the first time they’ve kissed, not even the tenth, this is the first time Ryo has truly been willing to let Dee go further than kissing. The inappropriate groping doesn’t count, and neither does the aborted test-drive Dee had talked him into a few months ago. Nothing had really happened then before they were interrupted, and Ryo hadn’t been sure he wanted anything to happen anyway, but this time… This time he said yes, and he meant it, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t still nervous, because as much as he does want Dee…
This will change things between them irrevocably. There’ll be no going back to the way they were before, the easy friendship and trust that’s developed since the Chief assigned them to work together, the comfortable working partnership. This will always be between them, and if things don’t work out, they could lose everything they’ve worked so hard to build. If it all goes wrong, then how would they be able to continue working together? More importantly, how could they continue being friends? And that’s a scary thought, because Dee isn’t just any friend, he’s Ryo’s closest friend, the one he always turns to when something is bothering him, and to lose that, the safe place Dee represents, would be devastating.
But he said yes to this, and he can’t change his mind, can’t push Dee away, not now, because that would damage their relationship too, and anyway, isn’t it better to regret doing this than to regret never having the courage to take the chance? He’s been a coward long enough, hiding in denial, insisting he’s straight when he’s known all along that isn’t true. He just couldn’t bring himself to accept the reality of who he is, but that’s all changed now.
And besides, he doesn’t want to stop, even though he’s nervous, even though he’s risking so much, and Dee is taking the same risk, although maybe it won’t be as bad for him if things don’t work out. He can always move on to someone else, he could have pretty much anyone he wants, except… The way Dee looks at him, it’s pretty clear he doesn’t want someone else, and maybe it won’t be a disaster, maybe it won’t be the end of what they have, maybe instead it’ll be the start of something even better.
And isn’t that chance worth the risks both of them are taking? That by accepting what Dee’s been offering for so long, instead of tearing them apart it might bring them even closer together? That what develops moving forward from this moment might be stronger, deeper, more certain than anything they’ve felt for each other up to this point?
Ryo doesn’t know what will happen after tonight, but he knows that tomorrow, for good or bad, things WILL be different between them. Nothing ever stays the same though, that isn’t how life works; change is a constant, or no one would ever go anywhere, or do anything. People make choices every day, never knowing what the results will be, always hoping for the best, and this isn’t even a difficult choice, despite the possible consequences.
Looking back, Ryo knows that everything since he and Dee met has been leading up to this moment, and that’s okay. He’s in safe hands, he trusts Dee, he’s ready, he’s finally letting himself be who he is. Whatever happens now, that’s one thing he can never regret.
The End
This will change things between them irrevocably. There’ll be no going back to the way they were before, the easy friendship and trust that’s developed since the Chief assigned them to work together, the comfortable working partnership. This will always be between them, and if things don’t work out, they could lose everything they’ve worked so hard to build. If it all goes wrong, then how would they be able to continue working together? More importantly, how could they continue being friends? And that’s a scary thought, because Dee isn’t just any friend, he’s Ryo’s closest friend, the one he always turns to when something is bothering him, and to lose that, the safe place Dee represents, would be devastating.
But he said yes to this, and he can’t change his mind, can’t push Dee away, not now, because that would damage their relationship too, and anyway, isn’t it better to regret doing this than to regret never having the courage to take the chance? He’s been a coward long enough, hiding in denial, insisting he’s straight when he’s known all along that isn’t true. He just couldn’t bring himself to accept the reality of who he is, but that’s all changed now.
And besides, he doesn’t want to stop, even though he’s nervous, even though he’s risking so much, and Dee is taking the same risk, although maybe it won’t be as bad for him if things don’t work out. He can always move on to someone else, he could have pretty much anyone he wants, except… The way Dee looks at him, it’s pretty clear he doesn’t want someone else, and maybe it won’t be a disaster, maybe it won’t be the end of what they have, maybe instead it’ll be the start of something even better.
And isn’t that chance worth the risks both of them are taking? That by accepting what Dee’s been offering for so long, instead of tearing them apart it might bring them even closer together? That what develops moving forward from this moment might be stronger, deeper, more certain than anything they’ve felt for each other up to this point?
Ryo doesn’t know what will happen after tonight, but he knows that tomorrow, for good or bad, things WILL be different between them. Nothing ever stays the same though, that isn’t how life works; change is a constant, or no one would ever go anywhere, or do anything. People make choices every day, never knowing what the results will be, always hoping for the best, and this isn’t even a difficult choice, despite the possible consequences.
Looking back, Ryo knows that everything since he and Dee met has been leading up to this moment, and that’s okay. He’s in safe hands, he trusts Dee, he’s ready, he’s finally letting himself be who he is. Whatever happens now, that’s one thing he can never regret.
The End
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Date: 2025-08-10 12:47 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2025-08-10 10:42 am (UTC)Thank you!