Life Sucks (Again)

[badly_knitted]

My life sucks. Tomorrow is mum's 80th birthday and I've got one of my 3-day migraines.

My sister, niece and nephew will be driving up tomorrow, and my boyfriend will also be here. They are all classed as guests (even though my sister lived here for 20 years), so despite my migraine, I will be expected to serve food and drinks to everyone, as well as doing all my usual jobs of feeding and cleaning out the pets, cleaning out the fire and getting the coal in. No doubt I'll also be expected to do all the washing up generated by six people. I can't even go to my room and rest in the quiet as my room is still uninhabitable and there's nowhere to comfortably sit. Not that there will be anywhere for me to sit downstairs either. There will be six people and only seating for four, so my sister will no doubt take my chair, simply because she's older and visiting. I'll have to stand or sit on the floor.

My boyfriend has bought mum a birthday cake, which was nice of him, but it's chocolate. He knows I can't have chocolate because it gives me migraines. So tomorrow, everyone but me will be eating birthday cake. =(

In two weeks, it'll be my birthday, but no one will visit for that and I'll still have to do all my jobs, and since my migraines are every two weeks, I'll probably have a migraine then too. And I still have to sleep on the lounge floor, like I have been for at least 6 weeks. I'm fed up!

Comments

[milady_dragon]

*Hugs* I hope you feel better soon.

And I can sympathize with the whole chocolate thing, although I'm allergic and I can't even stand the smell of it.

You're still on the floor? Just how long is that going to be going on??

[badly_knitted]

God knows, I certainly don't! I tried to clear the box room so I could sleep in there, but I've had to put other things in there so there's no room for me. So, still sleeping on the borrowed inflatable mattress which is now known (by me, anyway) as Fred the Bed. By the time Mum's finally stopped watching TV and I've made up Fred, it's usually gone 1 am, then I have to relax and read to unwind, so I don't get to sleep until at least 2 am, sometimes not until 3 and then I keep waking up all night. I don't think I get more than 5 hours sleep at most so I'm just getting more tired every day, then spend the day packing and lugging heavy boxes. I just want things sorted, but it's probably going to be months before everything is done.

[milady_dragon]

Months? Good grief! I hope it's sooner than that! You're going to be completely insane by the time anything gets done!

[badly_knitted]

I think I passed insane a few weeks ago, I'm heading towards 'completely bonkers' at a rapidly increasing speed! Mum's soaps are NOT helping - everytime I hear the theme tunes I have to fight the urge to put my foot through the TV screen.

[rift_bound]

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry to hear that things aren't getting any better! *Big and multiple HUGS* You need to have a serious chat with the boyfriend... he should know better than to bring chocolate cake when you're allergic! And "the guests" are family so they should chip in and help you. It's a law I grew up with... family always helps with clearing the table, washing/drying dishes, etc. That's all part of the family get-together ritual! AND still sleeping on the floor! That's really got to be taking a toll on your joints.

Hope the migraine goes away soon. Power-up those crystals! I'm sending as much positive energy as I can your way! *Pets your poor aching head*

[badly_knitted]

Family SHOULD help, it's true, but my sister doesn't see it that way. She expects everything done for her when she visits. It's like she never lived here. And my boyfriend DOES know better, he just doesn't think!

Sleeping on the floor - well, an inflatable mattress (nicknamed Fred the Bed)on the floor - isn't doing my joints any good. But then again, neither is lugging heavy boxes around. The arthritis in my hands is playing up and my wrists are getting increasingly painful. I have very weak, thin wrists and it doesn't take much to damage them. Migraines are never fun, but somehow it's worse these days because I can't rest quietly on my bed. The only place I can sit is in the lounge and mum has the TV on all day, so there's no peace and quiet to be found. I've got my Lapis wand and my Moonstones working overtime, which helps, but what I really need is a decent night's sleep - I'm lucky if I get 5 hours sleep a night, and I wake up several times ever night, often having a panic attack because I'm disoriented and don't know where I am. It's so dark in here with the light out, I can't see a thing.

Thanks for the positive energy - I need all I can get *hugs tight* Hope you're doing alright.

Oh god, something went crash outside, better check that out. We've got gales at the moment!

[ms_bekahrose]

Your sister sounds like a right madam. My younger sister acts that way sometimes and I know how much of a pain in the neck it can be. Seeing as she's older, she should know better. Your boyfriend should also pitch in. Chivalry isn't dead, men just say that when they want to be lazy.

Sending as many good thoughts and positive vibes your way, migraines are no fun whatsoever, and a happy birthday to your mum. *hugs* feel better soon and take extra care.

[badly_knitted]

My sister's just thoughless and self-involved, she acts like she never lived here, which I just find weird! My boyfriend's not lazy - he's been working really hard taking stuff to storage, carrying heavy boxes, taking stuff to charity shops (on foot because he can't drive) and doing shopping for us, despite having a bad back and working long hours and overtime, but mum doesn't much like him doing other things around the house - she's a control freak who criticizes the way I do things, never mind anyone else. I don't blame him for not wanting to get her mad at him again. She's always telling me how to do the jobs she won't do herself, complaining about the way I do things and trying to take over. She asks my advice, then does the opposite to what I tell her, makes a mess of things, then says she was doing what I told her to. She complsains about everything! Sometimes I wish I could trade my family in for something more useful... Or just leave home (which really isn't an option, I just wish it was).

[ms_bekahrose]

Ahhh your boyfriend sounds like a star - and yeah, my mum is like that sometimes too, so I can understand him not wanting to get on her bad side.

I definitely understand the sentiment about wanting to trade your family in for a newer - more useful model.

Your sister though... sounds like she and my little sister would get on like a house on fire. I'm sorry your sibling sounds like she never grew out of that bratty child stage. Perhaps it's just me, but, you're at a stage where you need your family's support, especially as you're sleeping on a blow-up mattress, and your sister should be more sympathetic to the fact that you need a little help too.

[badly_knitted]

My sister and I really don't have anything in common. We didn't get on well when we were kids and nothing has really changed. I don't think it ever will, we're too different.

[merucha]

I'm truly sorry, *hugs* Since I don't know you personally I don't understand your situation, so I'm going to swallow all the advice and just say we're here for you, even if only to let you vent and sympathize.

[badly_knitted]

*hugs* Thankyou! (I'm a bad reader, I still haven't got around to reading your fics - I do want to, honest, there just doesn't seem to be enough time, people keep writing and I can't keep up!)

People online are wonderful, they're unstinting in their support even when they barely know each other and that's been tremendous help to me when I've felt like tearing my hair out or running away from home (not really an option as I'm agoraphobic, but there are times I wish I could). I don't know how I survived before I joined LJ and DreamWidth, but I've never regretted taking the plunge.

Thanks so much for your kindness, it does help a lot to vent and know there are people who will sympathise and offer support =)